Capris

Pro tip: If you have fat legs and are at the beach and do not expect to spend 98% of your time actually in the ocean, CAPRI PANTS ARE YOUR FRIEND. Seriously. For some reason being this overweight and having bare legs is just eye-drawingly awful, but weighing the same amount and having your legs sheathed in olive capri pants is somehow much more discreet.

I am at the beach and my project this week is organizing all the pictures on my computer and camera memory. Most of these are incredibly sweet, magazine-worthy pictures of Bit Bit and Little Bit. Some, however, were pictures of me last year at the beach. Let's just say that spaghetti straps are not my friend. So ... much ... skin ...

Nauseating.




I really am trying to not wallow in the self-hatred here. To that end, this year I specifically purchased a swimsuit with a higher neckline that fastened between the shoulder blades for more coverage and (very important!) more support. I am an E cup. Support. Is. Crucial.

I think that part of not hating yourself, not being self abusive, isn't to just be utterly blind to your own faults. Loving the way you look (This is a goal for me, not yet a reality), has to entail knowing your weaknesses and being kind to them. Particularly when you know there will be a camera around and you will have to remember your wardrobe choices forever.