New Resolution and Motivation

Life is calming back down from the Weeks of Crazy, although it's been oddly difficult to pick up the pieces. I mean, we had a system, more or less, and then for a couple of weeks the system was trashed, and now it's like there never was any system to begin with, and we have start from scratch with everything. One of those things is the sweets plan. I think it needs to be simpler. (Also, I need to follow the plan instead of just thinking about following the plan.)

New plan: Sweets are allowed on weekends only, with the exception of sweet coffee. No dessert at all, Monday-Friday. None.    *Sigh*    *Sniff*    *Tears*

I have a new motivation to lose weight. I have bought my clothes at Lane Bryant for years, and in general have been very happy with how the clothes are designed for larger women, rather than simply sizing up a design that is meant to flatter a stick figure. However, more recently I've been getting more and more dissatisfied with the quality of the clothing. The fabrics are super-thin and simply don't stand up to normal usage and washing. My dissatisfaction culminated this week when the elastic snapped on a relatively new blouse and I discovered that in addition the other casings were coming undone. That's just poor quality. Unacceptably poor quality.

OK, then. No more Lane Bryant.

I returned the blouse, got my store credit, used it to buy lip gloss and gave the remaining $2* to one of the saleswomen that I am friends with. And then left, wiping the dust from my feet as I did so. (Don't worry, this was just in my rather melodramatic head. I offended no one.)

So now I will need to clothe myself either by the skill of my own hands, which I don't have the time for, or by shopping at stores that think a size 14 is the upper limit.

*Sigh* I am 50 lbs away from being a size 14. I know I've done some good, hard things here (I might secretly like running!) but right now I'm just discouraged and fifty pounds seems impossible. 

The number: 256



*This makes it sound like I'm getting bent out of shape over the quality of a $5 t-shirt. Originally the shirt would have cost $23, but because I did not have a receipt, they gave me the sale price of $7, which I understood and was fine with.